These days are better than that

My last post was in 2013. I don't know the reason made me stop writing here but I know how much I missed this place. The place I am nobody, but I feel complete. Life has changed I lot, and I can't be the same. I still love the same musicians and have the same hobbies, the same friends... But I'm not the same person. The way I look inside and outside is calm now even though I'm still under the presure.  I know 2015 is a big year. I'm starting my post-graduation (or is it called "graduation", or "undergraduation"? I don't remember anymore) . I'm gonna meet the Backstreet Boys for the first time and - if God bless me this way - I'm gonna live an adventure abroad.  I love my life but I need to fly. For the first time I'm pretty sure about it. Now I'm not talking about what I want. I'm talking about what I need...  And I can breath, breath, love!

Hope. I’m trying to be ready for the good times. I feel they are coming full of new great things and unforgettable moments. I’m feeling afraid of them, because I’ve spent so many times in the middle of this fucking pain that I can’t wonder how is be happy and loved and feeling ok. On the other hand, I’m starting to feel blessed about everything that happened to me. Pain = learning and learning is always welcomed! 

A new year, a new beginning... This time I want to do everything different. I want to listen more, I want to share more. I'm tired of having the world on my shoulders... I want to put MY world on someone's shoulders. Although I'm telling these things, I have a resolution: being alone. Yeah, that's part of my decision about try something new. Why?! Because last year I promised myself finish 2010 with a boyfriend and... well, I'm alone. So, I have to deal with my loneliness. By the way I have to deal with it and be happy. I'm tired of feeling upset! 2011 means to me “ be happy with what you have ”, so that's like I want to live! For you, who is reading here, I wish you a great year!