In Portuguese, we're used to say that “our neighbor always has a greener grass than us”… I am with this thought on my mind these days. At work things are not easy. In life, my feelings are not easy. However, I can't see a greener grass in my neighbor’s garden. Is this world so crazy I can’t see anything good?
I just wanna think this is a bad time and suddenly everything is gonna be ok again. But I miss a shoulder friend where I can rest and cry, a place able to give me the strength I need to see the beauty again. It’s hard to keep strong all the time and awful be a complainer all the time either. Everything I can do is writing about this pain and see this pain becoming words and texts and posts. The problem is: who will have the patience to read this?!
I see all my big dreams coming true, but the people I’ve dreamt to be here are not by my side. Of course, this is killing me. It’s hard build dreams up and don’t have any friend/lover to share it. It’s terrible live with this “I was betrayed” feeling. I don’t wish it to anybody…
Anyway I know there are some feelings I can’t forget: love, hope and understanding. They will help me to walk on. I can’t lose my faith… (So help me God!)